A letter from July 31st, 2018

Peaceful right?

Hello. This night a year ago you were violently kicked out from your only safe place in this world and your heart broke. It was around this time you made that really obvious cut on your arm that no one even asked you about. Has the scar faded at all? It was a time filled with so much sadness and crying in public places and late nights trapped in cigarette smoke. This night right now you are filled with overwhelming sadness. The career you fought so hard for just a year ago is now something you can't wait to throw away. You couldn't keep your promise to quit smoking and you haven't gotten any healthier. You are feeling so alone right now and you are so scared of the future. Something snapped within you and nothing excites you anymore. I pray that all this has changed. Hopefully you are still surrounded by the people who mean the most to you. Are you finally doing something good for the ones who need it more? Have you fallen in love and maybe had your heart broken again? Have you travelled to new places and collected stories you will never stop sharing? You recently came back from a trip to Taiwan. I want to remind you of your last night there, when we sped up the mountain on motorbikes and drank coffee to the sounds of our own laughter. I hope life has been kind enough to bless you with more good memories like these, too many to count. I hope your parents are finally getting the retirement they so deserve in a place they love. Is Mama finally back home with her favourite breakfast, the farms and the wet market? Are your brothers doing alright for themselves? My wish for you now is that life does not torment you. That the ruts you find yourself in are shallow and you grow immensely as a person. If you are reading this, hopefully you are laughing at how the years between us has made the sad memories almost painless. I have no idea what I'm doing in life but maybe you do. That's all I need right now to keep going.

Epilogue

3 months later

Hello!

It's us again. Reading this made me smile, then made me cry again. I'm finding it very difficult to find the words to reply to this, but here it...

Esog. .
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Eht ssacr rcwheeivh ryuo rewe fnrgreier a,rm rea neo no you t,o lal slitl reeh. Itonhucg tbu rekbno i a ,rfmreosa my ltlite wdno elppeo eben ahte e'iv ltlis. Tnoip nad msteesmoi my kyulc seeapsc nthe ,lear ithkn atht wree onw ehva i ta fnlseieg ttha of fomr bngiarsesamr ubt aevh ma i nkew i i as tdn'di os drea i nhwe ym satp aildy ot sat,olm sith the lefi hte. I dwon utqi ctu vaetn'h othugalh ti ngskoim, e'vi imlmseney. In hltiheera i the crtrylnue ma of is iytlslefe ecasueb ngiilv innnvoeterm ym ylno. Adsy, sltli em cxiete ielk feli 'dsetno nraomey i and lfee some. Is het bda uylusla ntxe one dan reettb, mhet adn ujts is hpoe syda clla i it. .
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Nad dtidn' domve i waya meoc abck. Yabme khnti u,kcf i en'etwr oyu ttah, ceasu eicgneptx s'ntaw. 4 fi mybea uoy kenw what a aentk 4 elss minocg olwud setho and rhee iuesrlsoy yuo ahev eilf ive' was lletit ra,eys ebne rsy,ea. Fo ti dsmrae yuo agnlo in lnda dna indsrfe tehm eaphs of hte a,wy ot p,rtoye nad dudreshn dmea emad of fundo eht tnaicnliuodno tr,eu oelv. Twne eeoppl aspt aeysr, dame eletrync no eht a ihwt up i us in oestcn,rui so ni tme irnetfefd os esirdfn i mnya lal erwe so nda ot to we mnay eueop,r 4 ees ohw trip apyhp. Os ew ldvoe era. And alkw llef iwht eth wgorn oyu ievan onpres in oot evlo waay to asw. Dngoi lal het eed,w rugds fdin umch nad estrtad too we kngniird ldouc kmgsino. Htat nwo lal i've tiqu. Eomietmss alryel godo aws hrtghou a i i su nrvee tup hsiw ukfc btu nse,los ti htta. Heewr i ot ggslruet adys egt am to a nda ti own, emos lislt nolg tmei bcak i toko. Satl liwl su rssac atth to a tieim,elf rcssa dda hte muhc rofm ot ceom aecptc eth e'vi htat no telf ielk ocme. Ot yteh levi rlleay wthi gte i asreie ohpe. .
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Eublird vene in that, ryuo twhi you pu tihw flie the eoeonms lla tup yuo ietrd hewil flle to wsne loev dgoo s,i yuo ferat nad. Eyes uoy who eno gcuinkf wno frmo hte msto no is dfuon mnmeto atht odrlw the anm dlai you or enorsp t,oh eth uoy ni hrteo,an ueartres elkdi mh,i omsohwe ouy os. Ispeorm lagon i a nehw se'h eon htem irpshlatineo, dogo a e,imt tish amce uyo btu eon onrehat fo ndeehppa ng,iaa uyo t'erwne it ngitawn. Us ym slos,en arletn rof i. Tmie eanrtpr and erbtet 'lwel rfo him nout'dcl dsake a eekp ihts hknti i i veha. .
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She ened to keen dan nad rdece,pla yrc nsoted' ets smum' taoub noggi ryae iertre reh hluag tegpndneri i dn'ot das'd txne os dildohoch hchwi 'im hmeo, slle ruo to. Wsa a vtisi, bhto nad a rtesa for ees htme ecma nda ago yhte nothm idd ehtglaur i hteer nhew. 3 seen tahw atsolm thhaulgo fo eht htwi tehm terrbsho i dwrol yaser the etats het rea ni ,erah hanvte' htrlagi i rofm. Snoo be hemo ghuhot il'l. .
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Su netmdreot eilf has. Nto aaslwy 'tstah nvahe't amirtcda akoy yltinola,emo re'we easy hsitng lmleynat eenb adn pepeo,l tub and. Adh teh mhcu onlga ywa nad e'wve htieghs wotesl a and r,osenp lwos uor nowrg hshig as os. Ew cyltluaa ldvei. Ullf, eenb nad to laos dgoo ahs su ifle. Hte aer teh dutsnredna das olt rimem,ose a rysslupigni,r tbu esan,plsi i ont aceh eebttr onw. Yynaaw smemteosi isht tslli eaid but i tahw haev ino,gd m'i jnneygoi rwee' no. Ohncgosi tol the nda w,no a of wodn hpe,l a to a si fo nda tei,m 'im danl of utb tanke heret a og nda t'is heer reoyt,p ni tib ofr fruetu paht ti drsaem. Si, aprt the anole no ew etsb flee erglno. .

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