A letter from September 13th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Well, we done got our heart broken for the third time. First one was Brandon. Second one was Falentha. And the third one was Dewayne. Stupid ain’t it? I hope a year from now you’re completely over it, or with someone who actually loves and cares about you. Or even better, somewhere better than right now. Right now I’m writing this after watching “Echoes” on Netflix. I was eating some Haitian Pattie’s, in a black dress, with the black jacket you took from Darlene. Anyways, Dewayne broke your heart in the worst way possible. Yep. I don’t wanna write it out just in case it hurts us again, and we begin to think about it. But that ***** ruined our life. Oh let’s hope and pray karma catches up to him. I know you’re gonna wanna find him so his user his “weezyoffone”. If he changes it… just search up weezy idk. or his brother sauvetay, i believe. Anyways, at this current moment your heart, chest, and stomach hurts because of what happened. You’re wishing a year would just go by already so you can be over it like the other niggas. Also right now, daddy and his wife are completely disappointed in you. You crashed the ******* car to go see a boy who didn’t give a **** about you. Crashing the car also prevented you from working and going to college. Now you’re just living in your parents house doing nothing but watching Netflix and applying for pointless jobs. You’re trying to master being nonchalant, and it’s currently not working lol. We’re listening to “Wrong Places” by HER. tryna make ourselves cry lol. it’s not working for some reason. we’re hurt but can seem to make any tears. does that mean the nonchalantness is working? lmao don’t take me serious. I hope we matured. Oop our eyes are starting to water then it went away. I hope you know I much I love you, even tho I’m not doing us any good. I just wish I was never bored. Haha here comes the tears. We’re hurt, babe. Nothing ever works for us. (crying break lol) Oh girl I really hope we’re doing okay right now. I hope you got a good job or something. Something to make us say “I’m proud of myself”. Oh! I hope we finally got our teeth and jaw fixed. Please please please. I’ve been thinking about praying and fully going to god, but I don’t know yet. Shouldn’t be a hard decision shouldn’t it? Welp. Heart is in real pain rn. Lol you just paused cause you’re really hurting right now. I think you’re about to cry lol. **** DEWAYNE. and **** any other ***** bro. I wanna keep writing. Idk why but I just want you to have something to read lol. I wonder what you’re doing right now. I hope something productive, miss lazy. Lol jk I love you. If life is worse rn just say **** it and **** yourself. And I am being completely serious. You’re will to live rn is at an all time 2. and that’s me being generous, I was about to put 0. We don’t know if we should cut off everyone, and just work on ourself. We don’t know what we should do. But I do know I wanna cuss out dewayne but he doesn’t care. He never did. What man cares? Exactly. Oh girl I really hope you’re alive reading this and you didn’t let the pain win. Even though and it’s whooping our *** right now. (Yeah we still crying but not really) I’m over here thinking this is karma for what we did to George. I hope he’s okay. We did him so wrong and I wanna apology, but it’s too late. I truly hope he’s doing well in life. “Gone Away” by HER. You’re sick and delusion, yk that? All you do is hurt people then get upset when the same is returned to you. We’re having a mental breakdown. Breathe. But I can’t. We’re truly trapped inside our own head. “Damaged” by Lajöy. Now we’re contemplating ******* ourselves. Idk. Just know we’re hurt. By the time you get this, you’ll be 19. Hopefully 19 treats you well, baby. Sigh i can’t believe how quick our life just turned on us over a BOY. but are we surprised? life was never good to us. not once. except for waking us up every morning just to repeat this dreadful process. I hope you don’t **** yourself. We’ve been thinking about it a lot these past few months. You need to be alive to read this. Why? Idk. Probably make me feel better. Anyways, hope you and Kemoya Jones are still best friends. I love you so much.