A letter from July 31st, 2018

Peaceful right?

Hello. This night a year ago you were violently kicked out from your only safe place in this world and your heart broke. It was around this time you made that really obvious cut on your arm that no one even asked you about. Has the scar faded at all? It was a time filled with so much sadness and crying in public places and late nights trapped in cigarette smoke. This night right now you are filled with overwhelming sadness. The career you fought so hard for just a year ago is now something you can't wait to throw away. You couldn't keep your promise to quit smoking and you haven't gotten any healthier. You are feeling so alone right now and you are so scared of the future. Something snapped within you and nothing excites you anymore. I pray that all this has changed. Hopefully you are still surrounded by the people who mean the most to you. Are you finally doing something good for the ones who need it more? Have you fallen in love and maybe had your heart broken again? Have you travelled to new places and collected stories you will never stop sharing? You recently came back from a trip to Taiwan. I want to remind you of your last night there, when we sped up the mountain on motorbikes and drank coffee to the sounds of our own laughter. I hope life has been kind enough to bless you with more good memories like these, too many to count. I hope your parents are finally getting the retirement they so deserve in a place they love. Is Mama finally back home with her favourite breakfast, the farms and the wet market? Are your brothers doing alright for themselves? My wish for you now is that life does not torment you. That the ruts you find yourself in are shallow and you grow immensely as a person. If you are reading this, hopefully you are laughing at how the years between us has made the sad memories almost painless. I have no idea what I'm doing in life but maybe you do. That's all I need right now to keep going.

Epilogue

3 months later

Hello!

It's us again. Reading this made me smile, then made me cry again. I'm finding it very difficult to find the words to reply to this, but here it...

Oegs. .
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Itsll iefrgnrer were rheehcviw ascsr you no eerh to, lla het one era mra, ruyo. Aosefmr,r my ettlil nbee koebrn i donw heta ubt a slitl ogcuniht iev' pleope. Het thta i ubt eht ttah rewe esaespc fo enhw i vaeh tsap i al,re fseilgne to dliay onpit dtid'n amost,l klucy htsi at my srmiaersnbag ma i steimmsoe so life sa nhte i now nkew romf hvea ym adn dear knthi. Hhaulgto ymimenels htaven' owdn vei' it quit i knsigm,o cut. Nvgili elilfeyst ynol my i bseceau iorntevennm in fo eth is aithherle am uceyrnlrt. Does'nt meso adys, ixtece i lkie itsll efel ilfe me dna anoremy. Adys het tee,trb si neo exnt is jtus hmet lyaluus i adn bad epoh ti clla nad. .
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'dtind meco i waay dna bcka eovdm. Nrtewe' tt,ah oyu kniht i asuec 'wanst myeba ,fukc pixtcnege. Tlitel hree neeb htwa yemab dowul ktaen ehva uyo 4 othes 4 ye,asr a,ryse lissyuore wken you flei a sesl dan ie'v if saw nmcoig. And ntiicndlanouo dan pesha rye,pto lveo y,wa hte demars of of fudno uet,r amde uyo sdefnir in gonal ti dame ot nehursdd meht dnal eth fo. Peoelp up all no ese i tpsa nfrieds edfetnrfi ymna 4 a pr,ouee i hwo ot wnet su ot so pypah os s,uiterocn trpi ni aedm dan tcenreyl eerw in wiht ew os many teh ,aseyr tem. So ear ew evdlo. Dan ot rgonw viane ni akwl the wsa htiw aayw ersnop uyo flel veol too. Mchu het kngsiom find ew oto grdsu tdeastr lal nda edwe, lcdou idngrnki ndgoi. Wno ve'i ttha lla qitu. I e,nssol ti tub ttah laryle asw sihw fcuk eevrn i su ogod upt guhthro mtsieesmo a. I dna i mite rustggle erwhe am meso bakc itlsl ookt teg o,wn a ti to ot lgon sady. To csrsa eocm a dda acpetc on sarcs the meco stla mfro ahtt telf eiifet,lm to ikel cumh eht illw eiv' hatt su. I wiht get ylaelr sreaie to eilv pohe thye. .
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,atth neev efli ouyr ptu ni to rbediul good eesoonm s,i hlewi up uoy oelv all redti senw ellf teh eatrf thiw uyo dna htiw uyo. Esey os uyo rnpeso delki oundf ni alid ttah ro you homsoew hte het seuertra ,mih ormf no rhot,ean uyo is uoy lrwod mna who menotm ngcikfu eon eht ,oth won somt. ,gaani ubt hs'e ogdo nadeepph oyu ti of a semrpoi neo cmae gnaol ouy onaetrh sail,erpnhoti mhet nweh ihts natgwni emt,i i nr'teew eno a. I us altner els,sno orf my. I peke ktihn 'lewl eebrtt tmei mih nda have tsih i adske n'otculd ofr pntrare a. .
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To 'im dad's ome,h alghu dts'neo est ende ot chwih smmu' ogngi nad girpteednn nad os rcy our seh reh ,ecadlpre etnx eriret i o'dnt llse atbuo ldihcdhoo yaer eken. Oga adn amec ethm eastr nad ddi haletgru rof isiv,t yteh boht tomnh a ese there a ehnw saw i. Mfro 3 het twih h,are toughhla rae snee htem etshorbr atsoml atwh eth asett yares lrdow hte in tgihalr haet'nv i i of. Lil' osno tughho omhe eb. .
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Tmetroden eifl ash su. Easy utb not rtamciad nda enbe nad ykoa ttsah' poee,lp in,llemtyooa n'etvah lytlmane wslyaa gntsih 'eewr. Had owngr olnga os ruo olsw nad sa wya ihsgh mchu htehgsi eve'w tlewos dan a teh ,posrne. Ew divle ltayaucl. Lf,lu dgoo hsa nbee ifle adn ot osal su. Elsias,np nwo olt i tub teh asd bteert sedtnrnadu hte ear a ersmei,mo tno ,sryiguplinrs chae. Ynawya 'im tish deai btu ltlis i evha athw e'wer gjioynne on igd,no seemtsoim. Ehert fo ot kante mie,t eth for n,ow tbu nad hlpe, feurtu a 'mi rhee fo a is a path dna ndwo a ni ,yprteo t'is fo ti rdmeas hgoicosn tib otl go nlda dna. Geronl eth olean rtap is, estb no fele we. .

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