A letter from Sep 05, 2022

Dear FutureMe, oops i forgot to write you a happy birthday,, how are you ? me ? well right now i’m not doing to well it’s thundering and raining pretty bad,,, i used to like thunder well we used to like thunder but it just reminds me of all the loud things that make me scared. are we still with sarah ? i love her a lot there goes another crack of thunder i i have a lot i want to say but i don’t know how to write it is uni going well 3rd year… hopefully i want to talk to you about something i keep thinking about and i’m sorry if it makes you cry do you still think that you don’t really matter. i mean all of this space time and galaxies it’s hard to not feel small. do you still hate the way you look ? thunder again the rain started to get louder. the sound isn’t as annoying as i remember it to be i hate you thunder again i think i’ll count it now 16 seconds do you still think about my birthday this year. does it still hurt to think about i didn’t want to be all dramatic at the time but i feel i left so much unsaid because i didn’t want to ruin the night. it was meant to be a night with my friends and they left even your girlfriend left and you just accepted it and you don’t want anyone to feel guilty even though you sat and cried twice while sammy had to comfort you i’m sorry you probably moved on and here i am bringing up the past keep looking to the future because right now the thunder has sounded 3 times since i last mentioned it. if i die young i hope i can still be i don’t even know where i was going with this but sometimes i can’t imagine me when i’m old thunder i just feel like i wont make it not by my choice but i don’t know happy 20th write one for 21 yeah thunder all the best you